Merry Meet my Wonderful Pagan sisters and brothers! I am excited this morning because here in the Northern Hemisphere it is Samhain and Beltane to my Southern Hemisphere friends. It is a time to celebrate either way. Here in my neck of the woods it is time to honor our ancestors and celebrate the harvest and beginning of the new year.
We all have something to be grateful for and I must say that I have a lot to be thankful for. In the last year I have went from in a lackluster relationship to not in a relationship at all, from stable financially to pretty much homeless, from fed to starving. I have had one short term boyfriend that ended in me being in a battered women’s shelter just to be safe. It has been a tough year to say the least.
Well I finally came to the point where I had no more choices. I kept complaining about my situation and nothing was getting better. Finally I broke. I swam out into the lake and began yelling at the sky. I asked why me, when will my life get better, why can’t I enjoy life? As I am floating 50 yards out in this lake…and all of a sudden it begins to thunder and lightning and rain and the wind is howling and making the water choppy and hard to swim in. I began yelling at the sky again ” Go ahead then! I dare you! C’mon let’s see if you will really do it. I want a Job, I wanna be able to pay my bills, I want to be able to eat more than once a week, and I want someone to love me and make me be happy.” I cried and I swam and cried some more.
Everything changed. Not immediately, but it didn’t really take all that long. I am now happy. I have someone who loves me and I love him and I don’t have to work 90hours a week to be financially ok. I am happy. And I am so very grateful for the universe putting the opportunity in my path and giving me the courage to make the leap that was required to get where I am. I am also grateful to my boyfriend for being him and for being there for me during my turmoil as a great friend at the time.
So I can say that I am having a blessed Samhain and I hope and pray that you do too.